Have you ever felt that God lead you to do something, and after you obeyed Him...all you heard were crickets (aka...nothing)? You were expecting fireworks or the floodgates of heaven to open up before your eyes, but all you saw was... nothing? Well, that's how I've been feeling lately. You see I started off this semester with things going GREAT. I was just about to join the choir at my church, and I had really found a small group that I enjoyed meeting with. I had plenty of time on my hands to reach out and be intentional with others. That's when it happened. I felt the nudge of the Holy Spirit leading me to audition for a play on campus. After much reluctance, I obeyed, and to my surprise I got the part. I was pretty psyched about this opportunity because I haven't acted in a while.
That's when reality started to set in...after over-viewing my schedule I saw that I couldn't be dedicated to the play AND do choir AND attend the small group. So, I postponed joining the choir until next semester, and stopped attending my small group ( i can return right after the play). That's when I started to question just what God was doing in my life. You see, it seemed to make sense to me that God would've wanted me to do the obviously 'spiritual' things: sing on the choir and keep attending the small group. Instead, however, I knew that He had called me to be a cast member in that play. I was so distraught, and confused. "Why would God seemingly call me to something that is taking my time away from Him?" I thought repeatedly. Even up to this point, with only 2 weeks left in the rehearsal process, I still find that question lingering in my head sometimes. Guys, I've shed many tears trying to figure out the answer to this question, and I cant tell you I've found one, but one thing I've learned is that when God says in Isaiah 55:9 "For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts." He means it.Just for the record, being in the play hasn't taken my time away from God, it was my definition of what "doing God's work" had to look like in my life. When God showed me a form that I was less comfortable with, and one that is less visible to others, I began to buckle ( how selfish of me).
You see I've always struggled with putting God in a box. Thinking He can only do things a certain way. The truth is: although God will NEVER go against anything His word says, or call you to go against anything His word says, He does call us to things that are very uncomfortable for us, and that might not make the most sense to us in the moment.I have to constantly remind myself that just because I might not be able to see the immediate fruit, it does not mean that God is not at work.
So with 2 weeks left till this play, I intend on enjoying every last moment and truly changing my perspective on how to approach the situation. I know this is where God has called me to be for now, and even if I don't understand exactly why, I will be obedient, trying to show the love of Christ to each and every one of my cast members. I can honestly say that God has been with me EVERY step of the way (trust me He has reminded me time and time again). He is CRAZY faithful! His steadfastness gets me all the time.
So just remember,when God has called you or placed you somewhere ( even if you don't understand why and might feel as if you're at a standstill), continue in obedience to His calling, knowing that His ways are sooooooooooo very much higher than ours and that He is still at work within and through us. Php 1:6 "And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ."
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